Fast Draw of 9S

It's not that fast

It takes me an hour

just a quick one, since its been a long time I didn't touch my tablet _(:3_

9S from Nier Automata

Dear Hikaru/Mio

Its been a long time

hahah ^-^ 

Man, time fly so fast...

I miss my memories that have been kept in here for years

made me laugh, all the nostalgia.

okay

today one of my friends remind me how she miss 'that person', I'll gonna call it Hikaru

Dear Hikaru, I don't know if you will ever read this, although you know Zimah trying her best to keep us all in touch, Im truly sorry if its bring uneasy or might be you have something that you make u became more further from us or maybe u have problem keep it by yourself.

we are truly sorry.

It's been so many years I tried to get over with it, I might trauma from having BFF thingy, but it's okay, your existence have bring happiness in my life back then, and it teach me a lot... 

Our scars, I learn my lesson.

Hey... you know... I've been keeping this a lot... I miss you dear friend, even thou we can't turn back like we use too.

Both of us have our live and path, and I wanted you to be happy with your choice.

I love you my dear friend

We all do

we may not seeing each other anymore, but you will always in my memories.

How grateful I am to met you.

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MANUSIA YANG JADUALNYA BERTERABURRR: Me

The process are quite tiring and hard and takes time (I'm such a slowpokes)...feels like crying... _(:3_ 

having problem such as mood because... when no mood my art work will be very fugly as dumb.... curse my perfectionist but FAILED 

but Alhamdulillah... at least I got the best result that I want... thou it's still long way to go... _(:,D_

I'm truly sorry... I'll try to make this as best as I can...

maafkan kecacatan lukisan saya...

I hate myself

ksooo meee (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻)

I was like wow... how they do that... such talent much patience _(:3_

Can I hug you?

The more I know people the more scared I am to live

"I don't like cry baby"

"Mengada je tu"

"Weak"

"Show off"

"Attention whore"

"Lembik sangat, cuba kuat sikit"

"Why take it so serious meh"

this word makes me lost hope and trust to those who say this

even I label everyone like that 

I tried to fit in but lied in front of people just to fit in to this society... but sometime when I can't stand it any more I cried... but no one to cried to, Allah hear it

I'm so down

yet I tried to stay strong

I'm not that weak

I can be strong by others support

when I cried and confide in front of you that's mean I need you, I trust you....

but no...

I can be hurt by word...

I learn a lot from my sister

but

little by little

with patient....

but I'm sorry

I'm sorry if I ever make your feeling hurts

I have no intention to make anyone hurt

Go ahead and hate me, go ahead, it's my fault for all of this...

you guys disgust of me, scared of me

you guys would be happy if I died

What Have I done

I didn't mean to hurt anyone

I Just wanted to be understand  by others

does it mean I won't ever obtain Happiness

but my wish

you live in Happiness forever

...

I don't have anyone to talk nor to hear my cry...

all this time only God and my Imaginary friends know how does it feel...

...crying alone like a little brat...

even I have family and friends beside me, they'll never understand...

I remain silent, lock it and keep it...

and from that time I decided to keep draw and just draw so I can let out all my sorrow in a picture...

Never knew it will be such burden to others to carry if they truly accept me

O Allah why I feel so lonely and sorrow

O Allah I never wish to hurt anyone

I should just stay in the cage

I'm sorry

Unforgiven

When I ask forgiveness from others, I know I've done something wrong....

but if they won't forgive me, then that's is truly my fault....

Somehow I don't know how to forgive my self...

I won't ask for forgiveness anymore since I'm done with it

Give me time to learn my mistake

I'm truly sorry

Hana

(I deserve to be mad for my stupid action)